Even In Our Darkness

A Memoir of a Soul that Longs for Beauty


“Unmasked, unsettling, and unforgettable . . . this will change the landscape of your soul.”

—Ann Voskamp


A young, accomplished professor and a bestselling author, Jack Deere quickly rose to fame, speaking the world over about the ideal Christian life. 

But as the story of his life unfolded, it did not lead where Jack expected.

Even in Our Darkness traces Jack’s story of growing up in the racially-divided south with his two brothers, baby sister, and young mother—who would turn to alcohol and bad relationships to deal with his father’s suicide. After years of “success,” Jack would lose his own son to suicide and his wife to addiction.

Eventually, Jack would come face to face with his own demons—an addiction to success, pride, and his need to control others. Only then would he surrender control and begin to listen.

Prepare yourself for an unvarnished look at the Christian life, told now for the first time. And discover how to deal with disappointment and find beauty, even in our darkness.

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About Jack Deere



Jack Deere, formerly an associate professor of Old Testament at Dallas Theological Seminary, is a writer and lecturer who speaks on friendship with God and on the gifts of the Holy Spirit. He is the author of the bestselling book, Surprised by the Power of the Spirit. Follow Jack on Facebook.



It doesn’t happen often, but every once in a while, a gripping book comes along that is profoundly unmasked, unsettling, and unforgettable. I couldn’t put this down: This is one devastating, thought-provoking, and needful read that will change the landscape of your soul.
— Ann Voskamp, New York Times bestselling author of The Broken Way and One Thousand Gifts
Even in Our Darkness is filled with the raw pain, beauty, mystery, and grace that our hearts were meant for. . . . I found the vulnerability and transparency of this book to be shocking, and a desire arose in me to live all the more in the light as God is in the light. This book will encourage you.
— Matt Chandler, lead teaching pastor of The Village Church and president of Acts 29 Network
Written beautifully and harrowingly—and so grippingly that you won’t want to stop reading—this story is everyone’s story.
— Eric Metaxas, #1 New York Times bestselling author of Miracles, If You Can Keep It, and Martin Luther
Jack Deere speaks on a vulnerable, raw, and honest level about his own narrative and the darkness he has encountered, both around him and within his own soul. He ultimately points the reader to the God who is always there and who always sustains.
— Dr. John Townsend, New York Times bestselling author
Raw, gritty, and transparent, Jack’s writing rings with effervescent joy and searing pain. I read the last seventy-five pages with my heart in my throat and tears in my eyes. If I could, I’d send every person reading this a copy myself. It’s that good.
— Lynn Vincent, #1 New York Times bestselling author of Same Kind of Different as Me and Heaven is for Real
I’ve known Jack Deere for nearly forty-five years. Or at least I thought I knew him. After reading his memoir, I became truly acquainted with my longtime friend for the first time. I cried. I gasped for air. I laughed. And I worshiped God. For Jack’s story is really a story about friendship with a God whose love and faithfulness are constant, whether we are on top of the mountain or walking through the valley of the shadow.
— Sam Storms, pastor of Bridgeway Church in Oklahoma City and past president of the Evangelical Theological Society

Connect with Jack

Publishing has changed so much since my last book. But my desire to communicate through writing has not. Will you join me and invite others to do so? Follow me on Facebook and sign up to join my email list. (Just enter your email address below.) Among other topics, I will write about friendship with God, grief, the beauty of the Lord, brokenness, finding peace, suffering, and the work of the Holy Spirit.


For inquiries, contact JackDeereAuthor@gmail.com.


March 18

Bridgeway Church Oklahoma City
Teaching at the 9am and 11am services
228 W Hefner Rd
Oklahoma City, OK 73114
Phone 405-749-8044


May 6

Beltway Park Church of Abilene
Teaching at the 9am and 10:45am services
4009 Beltway S.
Abiline, TX 70606
Phone 325-692-6540